My Stories :)
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Sunday; 25April.
Afternoon, i went to find JE gong :) Took thick needle from her and
went home to pierce. I tried pushing on the tongue first. I was scared
and hands were shaking so badly. Saw my lip hole and started trying
to switch target. After a while of pushing from the front, i felt the tip
of the needle coming out. But i wanted it to come out from the "old
hole" which i already had. Kept trying to find the hole and finally it
went in. I used to have a tongue and lip piercing and there's still hole.
Its the middle part that has closed. Headed on to tongue again. It's
definitely more painful at the tongue.. But yeah, went through again.
Dad saw me piercing in the kitchen and he said " Humph ! Ki siao again
right ?! " And i answered, " Too sian already ah... " Then he walked
away. He didn't stop me from doing what i like :) As well as my brother
and maid :)
Went out with twinny to Bugis after that ! :D
Bought a bag at Zinc for 30bucks. Lol ! Met a funny salesman too. He
kept joking with us. Irritating ! But hell funny. Hahaha. Even psycho-ed
us to buy the bag and yeah he succeeded. Really good :) That was the
first time i met someone so outgoing lol ! Then we went walking around
in the street looking for slippers. Went into this shop with a china lady
tending it. Twin was on the phone while i was looking at the slippers.
Then i heard " What sizes do you need ? ", in chinese. I didn't reply
cause i didn't know who was she talking to. Of course twin didn't too
cause she's on the phone. Then we walked out of the shop and i heard
that bitch saying " deaf, mute, deaf, mute ! " I was so pissed and i told
that to twin after she hang up her phone. Mother F.. We were angry
so we went in there again to look for the slippers, we wanna see what
she'll do next. Obviously she's isn't happy with us. We looked at the
same slippers again and this time she said, " No size for you " with a
black face. HAHA ! Priceless.
Headed down to Tampines to look for slippers too. We had KFC for
dinner :D love her so much :)
Monday; 25April.
School school school. Didn't really remember what happened on Monday.
Lol !
Tuesday; 26April.
Morning on the way to school, saw Andy in the bus :) In the end, went to
school with Grace, ShiYa and Andy. Missed a bus and waited for a long
time until the next bus arrived. Hahaha. He's a smoker until now. Bad.
Another funny thing is, 2 lift came and i followed him into the lift while
the rest are in the other lift. I didn't see them so i just rushed in.. Felt
so dummy. Lol ! But funny.
Class again as usual.. Had this LLA lesson; life skill activity ? :x
The damn teacher didn't come, the whole class signed the register and
walked out for break. Had about 3 hours break. The teacher said " Do
whatever you guys want " So, we skipped :) After lunch, there's another
1 and a half hour lesson for that. He showed us a video about race
discrimination. Good show ! :) Forgot what's the title of that.
Sad to say that, lessons on Tuesday are BORING !!! -_- !
After school, waited for Hanisah. Her friend had a relationship problem.
So she wanted to wait for her and we accompanied honey :)
While waiting for bus, a lady sat beside me at the bus stop. She placed her
hand on mine and said, " Girl, your hand is pretty. Thin and long means
will have good life. " She showed me hers and said, " Mine, fat and short..
Now work so hard. " And we chit chat :) Hope what she said was true
then. Haha :) But her story about her work is kinda sad. She cleans the
table in the canteen of the school. :( Hard working.
:( My aunt went back to Philippines. Aunt also known as maid.
Had a good dinner before sending her off. Kinda miss her right now :)
Plus, i'm sure Whitey misses her too ! He's always bored now. No
one plays with him. I have to do housework from today onwards !
She'll be back next month :) Just gotta wait.
Wednesday; 26April.
Started school at 10 :)
My classmate; Sarah and her boyfriend had some conflict.
Relationship is so problematic. Even though i'm single now, i'm happy.
But jealous to see other's being sweet sometimes.
What's mine is mine, what's not mine is not mine :(
Thinking so much.. -.-
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Sunday, April 25, 2010
Wednesday 21 april night,
Met twinny to slack. I drank Heineken beer. Lol ! Kinda bored and wanna try
if i can feel better. Drank only one bottle and we cammed all the way. Had so
much fun with her :) Talked my heart out and of course i felt better after
that. Really wanna thank her. So much love :)
Thursday, 22 April.
Had 1 and a half hour of P.E lesson ! :(
Ran the stadium for 3 rounds. Tiring ! At least i feel happier after exercising.
I know my physical shit is so weak now.. Lessons as usual.. Can't wait to
swim. One day i shall ask clique to swim ! :)
Friday, 23 April.
1 hour of accounting fundamental lesson. 30 mins of break with the class at
cafe. Had this stupid inter class competition at the indoor sports hall. So
boring ! :( Ended school at 12.30.. Went to eat, go home, sleep and day end !
Lol :(
Saturday, 24 April.
Woke up at 11. Went to Eunos with twinny and Senghuat to meet Guanshen.
Headed to Marina bay to meet Edwin then work at Marina Barage. So many
kites ! :) Happy to see those. I feel like being a kite, let someone fly me up
into the sky and forget all the bad memories :)
Drank Heineken beer again :D for freeee. + brought a can home. Also drank
wine :x the person in charge gave us some free drinks + food :)
Walked from marina barage to mrt :( so tiring.. Headed wrong direction
then need to walk back. Sweat like hell !!
Sigh...
Whenever i read his reply to me, i feel that he's blaming me for leaving him..
He kept saying that i left him and i should be happy. The one leaving doesn't
mean that they will be happy. I don't know.. I felt that i got shot by so many
bullets at one time. Don't know what the hell can i do. I'm keeping too much
things to myself. It really suck ! Forgive and forget is bullshit because i cannot
do it. I just felt blamed for everything. I hate this feeling. Fuck.
I wanna pierce !!
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Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Tuesday; 20 April.
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School as usual. Paid lots of attention during class (:
Somehow i have some friends issue. Like.. I don't really like a few in the
group. But it takes time to accept them too. " New ones are not better than
old ones." I believe in that :)
On the way home in the bus, bumped into Cheston and YangBin.
Cheston is still as handsome. Haha. - Just saying but didn't have any other
meaning. Good that he's still with his gf :D
Rain rain rain. It's like every evening.
Wednesday; 21 April.
Lessons starts at 10 ! But we had to attend this " Principal talk " so we have
to go to school by 8. In the end, the talk started at 9. Wtf.. Wasted my precious
sleeping time. Lessons as usual after that.. Nearly doze off during AFD lesson.
:( Too sleepy.
Got the urge to pierce my lips again. Ernest; a classmate, has a lip piercing !
Lol ! Kinda tempted to put tattoo too. Anyway no one can control me now :)
But i won't be so dumb to put something weird. Thought of putting my name.
I love to blast music in my ears nowadays. Damn shiok :)
Went on to facebook and saw "his" profile. "He's" talking about "her".
Went dumb and changed my nick to a angry tone. Again, i thought he was
trying to make me jealous. After that, i felt sad. Changed it to "I should
let go- in Chinese". He started talking to me asking if its regarding him.
I said that it was nothing and i went to sleep. He left a offline message to
me which i read it awhile ago.
- ok might as well
- just thought u let me go so long ago because of ur decision
- what's lost to me may not be the best anymore
- but just in case i just wanna say i already got over us
- all these while im not acting for you
- its true.
- so please dont think it that way.
He wants me to move on. I kinda hate him. I should say, i hate guys. All
jerks. Yeah. I don't wanna be so stupid anymore. There's no point being
sad over him. Not worth. The truth is, I haven't got over him.
:(
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Monday, April 19, 2010
Sunday 18 April.
Actually wanted to go out with the cliques. But didn't have much money to shop.
And they met some of their ex classmates so twinny and I didn't wanna go. :)
Met twinny afterall. She accompanied me to trim my hair. :D So happy.
Miss her so much (:
Been thinking so much lately. Going crazy.
No one is sincere except him. That guy who messaged me last few days ?
I told him to give up and all. From yesterday, i stopped receiving his messages.
Haha. Looks like it ended. I don't really bother. This is a way to see if who is really
sincere :) He don't worth anything. Hate this type of guys.
Afterall, he's still the best in my eyes :)
Don't really care about relationships now. Poly is my goal ! :D
Jerks.
Can't believe that i cried last night. Think too much. -.- really dumb ass.
Monday 19 April.
Emotional + happy.
Late for school as usual. Haha ! I'm really attentive in class today. So proud of
myself :) Had "CMS" some communication skill lesson. OMG ! The teacher is SO
HANDSOME ! He's from Scotland. Ang Moh ! Damn handsome ! :D Motivation
HANDSOME ! He's from Scotland. Ang Moh ! Damn handsome ! :D Motivation
to attend school everyday. HAhaa crazy ! But his accents are too strong. Don't
really catch any balls during lessons somehow.
Business environment lesson is SO DULL but i managed to make notes thru out !
Had "CARE" lesson from 4 to 5 ! Happy :)
Sang birthday song for April people. Ate cake ! Care lesson is really fun :)
Had loud musics and everyone is playing pillow fight. Lol ! Someone kept
throwing at me. -.- didn't really get to catch the culprit but i was throwing at
everyone. Haha ! Stress out !! :D
Love today's care lesson. Really feel that the class is getting closer :) Fun :D
I can't believe that i actually took out my notes to read for about 30mins.
Even thou its only 30 mins, its a miracle. HAHA !
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sleeping soon :)
Can't stop thinking of you (:
Life still goes on..
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Friday, April 16, 2010
School school school.. !
Saw AndyLow in school :) Exchanged number and met up for lunch in school
yesterday. With my friends and his. Lol !
Saw many other friends in school too. Looks like there's so many people ending
up in ITE college east too. :D
Lessons started yesterday with Accounting Fundamental and Business
Environment studies. Accounting Fundamental is similar to the Principals of
accounts which we've learnt last few years. Business Environment is a
rather dull subject. Studying and understanding the different type of working
problems. More like MEMORIZING lesson. So boring. Like history lesson. T_T
Hahaha !
Andy's friend took my number. -_- he said that i'm attractive. Wtf.. I've been
entertaining his messages. Cause i'm too bored !!! He even asked me out. But
im seriously not interested in him. Just make friends thats all :)
School is somehow getting interesting, especially class. Getting more sociable.
HAIR STYLING course guys are freaking handsome la ! Gosh ! HAHAHA.
Never stopped looking at the fucking cool hair. I think i've chosen the wrong
course. Damn ! And and, beauty and spa course, the girls damn chio :D
But i wonder why hair styling girls are not pretty. :x
I damn bored. Kept thinking...... :(
Still think that some things are meant to make me think wild. But whatever
it is, i'll still be strong and live positively !
Life still goes on even though its a blessing in disguise :D
STUDY MODE !
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Monday, April 12, 2010
Saturday; 10 April.
Went shopping with my auntie; aka maid. :D
Bought black shoes for school after i read that only black shoes allowed for
accounting and other business related courses ! Kinda shag cause i wasted
my mom's money on the converse brown shoe. The black one costs 40bucks
though.. Went to tampines NTUC and bought lots of crackers as well as
milk :D It's been a long time since i last drank milk. I must be so low in
calcium now. Hahahaha ! Can't forget that the guy cashier was starring at
me for a long time. Kinda irritated so i walked away to the ATM to redraw
some money. While eating with my aunt at the food court, i mentioned that
irritating guy. She said that while i walked to the ATM machine, he kept
looking out for me. Gosh. Kinda goose bump.
Sunday; 11 April.
Nothing much happened actually. Except that dad and i went to 121 for
dinner. :) Went to bed at around 3+ but didn't get to sleep because my
brain was talking too much.
Monday; 12 April.
1st day of school. Orientation. Rushed and packed my bag quickly, thinking
i might be late for school. Walked pass 151 coffee shop and saw WeeKian.
I gave a smiley stupid face and he was there giving that type of XL face.
Wanna bish his face at that time. F face.. Went to school with Seng Huat..
Nearly missed the stop. Lol !! Damn joke. A total weirdy feeling when
entered the school. Full with students. Anyway, classmates are still alright.
I made friend with Patricia. :) 1st classmate i made. Lots of stupid games
though. Sweat like hell too. Kinda happy that the classrooms are air
conditioned :) Food there are also not really expensive. :D
1 guy disturb my name. He's from accounting nitec course. Someone in
my class called Xiang Kun. He used to call him Xiang Xiang. Lol !
Kinda bored to wake up early for school.. :(
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Thursday, April 8, 2010
Went to parkway with my family last few days on the Sunday; 4th April..
Met mom at Watson's. Bought food for Whitey :) Cost $100. Brother paid
half for me :)
Ate New york new york.. Felt that being with my family is somehow
important. On the way there, in the bus, i think a lot. Passed by the bus
stop where lots of memories placed. Hahaha its over.. Useless to think about
it also. Uncontrollable. Freaking brain.
I can say that im thinking too much almost everyday. Lol ! Whenever im
bored, i'll think of shit stuffs. Damn.. Life is kinda meaningless. But somehow
it will benefit. :)
Went cycling today with jiaen, guanshen and senghuat. Cycled around Bedok
Reservoir Park.. 2 rounds. Tired legs.. Get to see beautiful view of the
reservoir. Its hell beautiful at night. No wonder i see couples sitting on
benches :) how sweet ! :D
Went to 85 market for dinner. Stingray :) Everywhere i go, i think of him.
Hahaha what a dumb ass. Stupid shit. Get a life.. He don't need you now! :D
He asked me questions about why i broke up with him and what is his
character about. Blablabla. Just hope that he'll be happier :D hope he'll change
his character to be a better man. So he have many choices to make :)
As for me, it's still difficult to let it go. But i believe that time will heal. :)
For now, i'll not trust anyone easily. Because humans are scary.
Self esteem ? I don't think i need self esteem. Yes, what's important, is how
you looked at yourself. I don't think that i suit you anymore. You should
be with someone better :) I'm not the one. Just be happy.
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Wednesday, April 7, 2010
You've got the wrong story again.. Or maybe i didn't put everything clearly.
No one can understand me...
Honestly speaking, i'm scared of guys now.
I'm scared of so many things right now.
Can't stop thinking. Feared.
I might not be able to fall for someone for a period of time.
I'm always lying.
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Monday, April 5, 2010
It's good to see that you are moving on. :) Go on.
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Friday, April 2, 2010
Went to Simei ITE in the noon with twin, gs and senghuat. Senghuat is also studying
in the same school. We went there to see if there's any sales of uniform. Unfortunately,
it's closed. Have to return on Wednesday as they will be opening then..
Headed down to Sheng Siong supermart at bedok. Shopped for food and went to
Senghuat's house after that. Then jiaen came along :) Ate cup noodles with pork corn
chicken. Played with huat's horny dog. It kept wanting to " F " my leg. Kinda irritated
but its freaking cute. I wish my dog is as daring as that. As in.. coming to look at
people closely rather than to hide.
Went to Tampines Giant.
Played ball in the sport's depart. Lol ! People went staring at us. Freak old man..
En went to throw a ball and hit onto someone, then we ran off. Hahaha.
Ate meatballs and some cakes at IKEA. Couldn't believe that i ate a wonderful cake.
I saw blueberry cheesecake. " His " favourite. Most of the time we went to IKEA in
the past, i'll get cheesecake. Didn't know there's blueberry one. How i wish i can eat
that with him :)
After eating, we roamed around. Flashbacks came.. Thinking of those times when
"we" were together. Talking about designs of "our home" will be like. Hell lots of
memories.. Shall not talk about sad stuffs. :D
Messaged him and realised that he's with rachel. Playing lan with some other friends.
Kinda guess that rachel actually didn't really like me now. I told "him".. And he
said probably is because she's disappointed in "us".. So i think that it's true that
she didn't really like me. I can see it from her facial expression when we bumped
into each other that time.. And maybe, he told her that :) Even when we messaged,
her reply to me was rather cold.... Hmm...
I may seem strong, happy or rather " fierce ".. " haha some say that i look fierce
when i don't smile. Don't know if its really true.. " I do get hurt when i see friends
hating me or being sarcastic with me. Geez.. Maybe i just think too much.. :D
I envy "him" :)
I might wanna cut my hair short. But im afraid that i'll regret. Twin said that i
might look fine :) But en said that it don't suit me. :( Don't know what to do..
"He" told me that he'll trim his hair like one of the Korean singer. Also told me
that he bought a Zara leather jacket for poly use. I think that he's making me
jealous. But maybe not. Im just thinking too much lately. Going crazy :)
Suits him :) He's got charm. And most girls will go crazy for him. Just hope he'll
make the right choice. Wish him the best :D
Anyway, its twinny and me. :)
Dug out some photos taken on the 29th March. Work at dempsey house :)
Kinda blur and small. Hahaha.Im suprised that someone reads my blog ! :)
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