My Stories :)
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Tears and tears, unhappiness and unhappiness.
Why is it so difficult to be a good girlfriend ? If you care, you controlled too much over
them. If you don't care, they will feel bored with you. So what should girls do ? For
everything we do, it's a mistake. For every wrong doing they done, once they say "sorry",
we have to forgive them. Girls are always at the losing end. Lesser strength and
emotionally weak. They are stronger and harsh. Sometimes i wonder why is this world
so unfair ? If you cared so much that your boyfriend is spending too much and buying
unnecessary stuffs, you wanted to stop him immediately. However, he said that you are
jealous because you can't have what he desired and said that you controlled too much
over him. You stood still and blamed yourself for caring so much. You might even think
of not caring for him anymore. So why not loose it up and keep on moving ?
The worst thing is to meet an unreasonable and petty boyfriend. But what can you do
when your love for him is so strong ? All you can do is to bear with it. But how long can
you do it ? I agree to what a boy in game said "Girls are toys". Guys always toy with
every girl's feelings. Scold us, attitude us, then next minute said "im sorry" and case
closed. Do you guys really know how it feels ?It's worst when god plays tricks on you.
A moment whereby it's a great opportunity to solve problems, the weather take over.
All of you are freaks ! Men are scary creatures !And please do not tell a girl that you are
always superior no matter what. It really makes a girl want to kill you right away. We
have feelings. How does it feel when you are unable to do anything right ? Like a
handicap ? What if you are sad, and your boyfriend presumed that you are angry with
him.. and he scolds you. What will you feel ? AWFUL..
I'm feeling shit right now. I don't know what to do.. This is the first time I'm feeling so
lost.. I've been called a "flirt" over and over again. Things had changed and i could not
tolerate it further. I believe that the pain in me, can be removed temporally when there's
pain in the outside. Stop hurting me.. It's so painful !! Think before you do, or else you will
miss me for the rest of your life. Im tired.. ¶ 7:38 PM 0 Comments
Why is it so difficult to be a good girlfriend ? If you care, you controlled too much over
them. If you don't care, they will feel bored with you. So what should girls do ? For
everything we do, it's a mistake. For every wrong doing they done, once they say "sorry",
we have to forgive them. Girls are always at the losing end. Lesser strength and
emotionally weak. They are stronger and harsh. Sometimes i wonder why is this world
so unfair ? If you cared so much that your boyfriend is spending too much and buying
unnecessary stuffs, you wanted to stop him immediately. However, he said that you are
jealous because you can't have what he desired and said that you controlled too much
over him. You stood still and blamed yourself for caring so much. You might even think
of not caring for him anymore. So why not loose it up and keep on moving ?
The worst thing is to meet an unreasonable and petty boyfriend. But what can you do
when your love for him is so strong ? All you can do is to bear with it. But how long can
you do it ? I agree to what a boy in game said "Girls are toys". Guys always toy with
every girl's feelings. Scold us, attitude us, then next minute said "im sorry" and case
closed. Do you guys really know how it feels ?It's worst when god plays tricks on you.
A moment whereby it's a great opportunity to solve problems, the weather take over.
All of you are freaks ! Men are scary creatures !And please do not tell a girl that you are
always superior no matter what. It really makes a girl want to kill you right away. We
have feelings. How does it feel when you are unable to do anything right ? Like a
handicap ? What if you are sad, and your boyfriend presumed that you are angry with
him.. and he scolds you. What will you feel ? AWFUL..
I'm feeling shit right now. I don't know what to do.. This is the first time I'm feeling so
lost.. I've been called a "flirt" over and over again. Things had changed and i could not
tolerate it further. I believe that the pain in me, can be removed temporally when there's
pain in the outside. Stop hurting me.. It's so painful !! Think before you do, or else you will
miss me for the rest of your life. Im tired.. ¶ 7:38 PM 0 Comments
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Today is a Thursday... Had just finished a total of 2 subject papers for O levels.
English and Mathematics.. Phew~ Having a few days rest and Monday will be the
continuation of the battle again. I'm kinda worried for my Science as the result is getting
from bad to worst. What the hell..... These few days, I get really indolent and lethargic when
i think of studying. Frequent headaches hit my brain. Am i going to die ? Hahaha...
I love my fighting fishes..
My $35 fish. Shiny blue, opaque tail with blue trimmed. Hehehehe ! He's a sexy male breed.
Next, the newest fighter in my home. The male copper breed. Cost $12... =x
While starring at his other friend.
Say cheese to the camera !
The fish looks like they have a spade tail.. But it also looks like a "D" tail :(
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English and Mathematics.. Phew~ Having a few days rest and Monday will be the
continuation of the battle again. I'm kinda worried for my Science as the result is getting
from bad to worst. What the hell..... These few days, I get really indolent and lethargic when
i think of studying. Frequent headaches hit my brain. Am i going to die ? Hahaha...
I love my fighting fishes..
My $35 fish. Shiny blue, opaque tail with blue trimmed. Hehehehe ! He's a sexy male breed.
Next, the newest fighter in my home. The male copper breed. Cost $12... =xWhile starring at his other friend.
Say cheese to the camera !
The fish looks like they have a spade tail.. But it also looks like a "D" tail :(Hope its both D tails :D
Look ! Ahboy is waiting for me while im using the computer.. So adorable :D
6.16PM
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Sometimes i really thought that I'm like some depressed child..
With low confidence, always thinking that im useless, thinking that no one loves me..
Sometimes i really hate myself. Whatever i do is wrong. My parents don't talk to me.
I brought a pet rabbit to accompany me at home. Unfortunately, it doesn't play with me
even though how much i tried to play with it. In fact he treated me as some sex toy, trying
to fuck my legs. It's adorable somehow but also irritating sometimes. Life can never be
complete. I wish that someone will shower love for me, especially my parents. But i don't
feel it..
Today is our anniversary. We had science pratical today. I thought that we could spend
our happy times at the fish spa where we went last few days. However, when i received
his call, he's totally not into mood. I didn't know what to do so i wished him happy
anniversary. His reply to me was with no expressions as though it's normal to go through
an anniversary day. I told him what i am doing on the computer and he concluded that
i was "carrying balls" in helix forum. Now in his messenger nick, it reads "Damn i made a
big mistake for science practical!!! and i hate bootlickers!" That bootlicker whom he's
referring to, is me. He will never know how much he'd hurt me. It's just a game, a forum,
an internet website.. Why do you have to do this to me ? Why is everything my fault ?
What have i done wrong by reading in the forum ?
bootlicker / carrying balls = trying to be close to someone else by any means.
I should always be alone. Talking to myself, playing with myself. I don't want to create
any more troubles. Exams are around the corner.. I couldn't imagine myself going through
all these accusations. I don't wish to fail my exams. Everything is a distraction. I'm tired
of shedding tears.
I feel like locking myself up.. Life is such a misery. I'm feeling lost. How i wish that I'm
18 now. I would like to be drunk right now.
I smiled while looking at your photos. After seconds, tears flow down without a reason.
Why ?
6.39PM ¶ 6:15 PM 0 Comments
With low confidence, always thinking that im useless, thinking that no one loves me..
Sometimes i really hate myself. Whatever i do is wrong. My parents don't talk to me.
I brought a pet rabbit to accompany me at home. Unfortunately, it doesn't play with me
even though how much i tried to play with it. In fact he treated me as some sex toy, trying
to fuck my legs. It's adorable somehow but also irritating sometimes. Life can never be
complete. I wish that someone will shower love for me, especially my parents. But i don't
feel it..
Today is our anniversary. We had science pratical today. I thought that we could spend
our happy times at the fish spa where we went last few days. However, when i received
his call, he's totally not into mood. I didn't know what to do so i wished him happy
anniversary. His reply to me was with no expressions as though it's normal to go through
an anniversary day. I told him what i am doing on the computer and he concluded that
i was "carrying balls" in helix forum. Now in his messenger nick, it reads "Damn i made a
big mistake for science practical!!! and i hate bootlickers!" That bootlicker whom he's
referring to, is me. He will never know how much he'd hurt me. It's just a game, a forum,
an internet website.. Why do you have to do this to me ? Why is everything my fault ?
What have i done wrong by reading in the forum ?
bootlicker / carrying balls = trying to be close to someone else by any means.
I should always be alone. Talking to myself, playing with myself. I don't want to create
any more troubles. Exams are around the corner.. I couldn't imagine myself going through
all these accusations. I don't wish to fail my exams. Everything is a distraction. I'm tired
of shedding tears.
I feel like locking myself up.. Life is such a misery. I'm feeling lost. How i wish that I'm
18 now. I would like to be drunk right now.
I smiled while looking at your photos. After seconds, tears flow down without a reason.
Why ?
6.39PM ¶ 6:15 PM 0 Comments
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Woots !
I'm feeling kinda bored and so i've decided to blog !! I'm currently into Cabal Helix again..
:( The motivation for studying just died off... =x How can i build it back again ? Its only
a couple of days away from my major exams... Damn !
Yesterday, baby brought me to Pasir Ris farmway to experience Fish Spa !! :D
12 bucks per half and hour. tsk tsk... 24bucks for 2 heads. Isnt that profitable ? Lol.
When i place my feet into the water, all the Gurra Rufa sucker fishes rushed towards
me. Haha. They look like Corydora's [ found in fish tanks; known for eating shit.. ]
They have white belly and a black top.. My opponent is baby ! He stole so many fishes
from me, once he put in his both dirty legs.. Awww ! Should have gone there alone .... D:
Went to eat Subway in the Courts MegaStore... :D Walked walked walked....
Looked looked looked... Bleah ! Im so interested in laptops ! Either MacBook or HP dv6..
And, IKEA's yummy meatball ! :D
:D :D :D Fly me to the moon, and let me play among the stars !~
Man !! To all the males with cock out there, please learn to understand girls more !!!!
Lol !
12.07PM ¶ 11:38 AM 0 Comments
I'm feeling kinda bored and so i've decided to blog !! I'm currently into Cabal Helix again..
:( The motivation for studying just died off... =x How can i build it back again ? Its only
a couple of days away from my major exams... Damn !
Yesterday, baby brought me to Pasir Ris farmway to experience Fish Spa !! :D
12 bucks per half and hour. tsk tsk... 24bucks for 2 heads. Isnt that profitable ? Lol.
When i place my feet into the water, all the Gurra Rufa sucker fishes rushed towards
me. Haha. They look like Corydora's [ found in fish tanks; known for eating shit.. ]
They have white belly and a black top.. My opponent is baby ! He stole so many fishes
from me, once he put in his both dirty legs.. Awww ! Should have gone there alone .... D:
Went to eat Subway in the Courts MegaStore... :D Walked walked walked.... Looked looked looked... Bleah ! Im so interested in laptops ! Either MacBook or HP dv6..
And, IKEA's yummy meatball ! :D
:D :D :D Fly me to the moon, and let me play among the stars !~
Man !! To all the males with cock out there, please learn to understand girls more !!!!
Lol !
12.07PM ¶ 11:38 AM 0 Comments
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Went to fish farm yesterday with dearest, dad and ah ma; aka maid.
Bought fighting fish ! :D Its sort of a rare type with out lines on the tails and fins.
costs $35 ! I wanted to buy this sexy male pakat last few weeks but it was $40 then.
hahaha. Met korkor Nicholas there too. He knew the boss of Yun Feng and asked for
discount when i buy fish. Lol ! Baby bought pure copper breed which costs another $35.
wew....... total discount was only $5.. :(
Headed down to baby's house to help him with his fish tanks. Hahahaha. Can't wait to
breed my fishes.
Pop ! This is cookie...
Poodle ? :D hahahaha. My brother's friend's dog staying in my house for a day of safe
keeping. Isn't he adorable ? Well trained male poodle. His face is round.. makes me
wanna squeeze his cheeks. He always sit with a hand on top of the other. Maybe he's
trained to sit like this ? Gentleman ? lol.
Fatty face. :D
Can i own a doggy too ? =x
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Bought fighting fish ! :D Its sort of a rare type with out lines on the tails and fins.
costs $35 ! I wanted to buy this sexy male pakat last few weeks but it was $40 then.
hahaha. Met korkor Nicholas there too. He knew the boss of Yun Feng and asked for
discount when i buy fish. Lol ! Baby bought pure copper breed which costs another $35.
wew....... total discount was only $5.. :(
Headed down to baby's house to help him with his fish tanks. Hahahaha. Can't wait to
breed my fishes.
Pop ! This is cookie...
Poodle ? :D hahahaha. My brother's friend's dog staying in my house for a day of safe
keeping. Isn't he adorable ? Well trained male poodle. His face is round.. makes me
wanna squeeze his cheeks. He always sit with a hand on top of the other. Maybe he's
trained to sit like this ? Gentleman ? lol.
Fatty face. :D
Can i own a doggy too ? =x
Man.. I haven't officially started my thorough revision.. :( I also lost my freaking english
note book.. What the hell..... Im so doomed ! Just extremely interested in my fishes. Lol :D
1.03PM
going out with cliques soon :D
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Lalala... Im feeling BORED !!!
When i check out my facebook, i saw this on my profile.....
haha ! Its rachel baobei spamming my profile ! I thought she forgot my bday bcuz she
didn't message me this year !! However i was touched by so many wishes made by some
people. hahaha. :D
Attended my cousin's wedding yesterday... Hiton Singapore level 24. Haha... Tall building..
The food there was delicious.. Especially the CHEESECAKE !!! I had 2 servings of the it.
My bro drank too much alcohol and so i have the privilege. lol ! My mom thought that she
took cocoa cola drink and she gave it to me.. Its red wine. lol ! My dad also asked me to
drink beer. =.= ! While watching my cousin and his wife saying "I DO", my eyes felt
watery. I find it sooooo sweet. hahaha ! Maybe im too emotional sometimes.
Sat with few cousins. Some how admired them also. All of them looked successful unlike
me.. Dumb in the brain and everywhere. Engaged with husband who can afford to raise
the family and bring them to abroad. Driving sexy cars, wearing pretty dresses. I can
only say that i envy them :D Anyway, i am me !
Friends also cancelled the outing for Sunday; which is today.. Bcuz they have not much
money to spend. Its ok :D I understand. haha :) AND....
Fuck it ! My fighter fry DIED.......... A handful of them.. Thanks to the "Liquidfry 1" food.
Anyway, I'm not supposed to feed the fry until day 6, according to my brother's friend.
T.T !!!! Im so sorry fry fry.. I'm only left with about 10 fry.. I wish that they can grow up.
:( sickening !!!! Anyway, their mother is "Royal Blue".. Black head and blue body. Woo !
I was told by dearest.. hahaha.
When i check out my facebook, i saw this on my profile.....
haha ! Its rachel baobei spamming my profile ! I thought she forgot my bday bcuz she
didn't message me this year !! However i was touched by so many wishes made by some
people. hahaha. :D
Attended my cousin's wedding yesterday... Hiton Singapore level 24. Haha... Tall building..
The food there was delicious.. Especially the CHEESECAKE !!! I had 2 servings of the it.
My bro drank too much alcohol and so i have the privilege. lol ! My mom thought that she
took cocoa cola drink and she gave it to me.. Its red wine. lol ! My dad also asked me to
drink beer. =.= ! While watching my cousin and his wife saying "I DO", my eyes felt
watery. I find it sooooo sweet. hahaha ! Maybe im too emotional sometimes.
Sat with few cousins. Some how admired them also. All of them looked successful unlike
me.. Dumb in the brain and everywhere. Engaged with husband who can afford to raise
the family and bring them to abroad. Driving sexy cars, wearing pretty dresses. I can
only say that i envy them :D Anyway, i am me !
Friends also cancelled the outing for Sunday; which is today.. Bcuz they have not much
money to spend. Its ok :D I understand. haha :) AND....
Fuck it ! My fighter fry DIED.......... A handful of them.. Thanks to the "Liquidfry 1" food.
Anyway, I'm not supposed to feed the fry until day 6, according to my brother's friend.
T.T !!!! Im so sorry fry fry.. I'm only left with about 10 fry.. I wish that they can grow up.
:( sickening !!!! Anyway, their mother is "Royal Blue".. Black head and blue body. Woo !
I was told by dearest.. hahaha.
Shall end my post here. Be back when I'm feeling "FREE" :D
1.22PM
Friday, October 2, 2009
Back for blogging !
Last few days, on Sunday, 27 Sept, baby and i went to Bugis junction to look for dress.
My cousin's wedding is coming ! I can't wait to eat those delicious dishes !!!!! :D
Well, while shopping, we met Baobei RACHEL :D hehehe ! Its been so long since all of
us last met. I really miss her. After my exams, I'll definitely meet her up with my baby.
wee wee :D They are " twins " afterall. haha :D
Im in love with this dress from Dorothy Perkins.
Anyway, i dropped my phone in the dressing room. LOL ! Wtf.. my heart was like..
CRACKED ! I told this to baby, he said..no big deal cuz he dropped his twice. lol !
Luckily this isnt IPhone... or else, it might be dead by now.
The last day of September ! 30/9..
Went to Kbox at Marina Square after school. :D
Sang and drank. Had the buffet dinner with the $23++ package. Irritating ass.........
I think i'd gained 5kg from that buffet. Lol.. i hope not. Its fucking hard to slim down.
My birthday ! o1/1o.
Hohoho.... Went to Tampines Mall with baby after school. Ate pastamania and baby
treated me Swensen's icecream.. I prefer Hagen Daaz. =x
Baby promised to treat me that on our anni :D lol !!
He fetched me home after buying Daphnia for my fry. :D
Sadly, baby didn't want to go up to my house because my aunties' were there to celebrate
my birthday with me.. :( anyway, i got lots of red packets :D hahaha.
I'll own you ! Dorothy perkin's dress :P
My brother bought me this cake !
Noodles ? haha those are actually made of cream. Its delicious :D
However, he's at work when we celebrated my day :( Noodles represent "Mee Sua"
means..... long life. Haha. Eggs and vege also have meanings behind it. But i dont know
what they meant. =x
My noob picture. Lol !
Great thanks to my dearest, who brought me so much happiness in my life.
Also not forgetting my family and my great friends. They sang me bday song !
Including baby... haha i remembered that he's shy when he sang it xD
Now, for the interesting part ! Look !
My fighting fish and FRY !!!!! Those little dots.. are the babies. With their dad. :D
This, is their mom. Hahaha. Since my dad love this little blue fish, i breed them together.
:D
Some pretty half moon betta to share :D
I still love my betta even though there are prettier ones :D
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Last few days, on Sunday, 27 Sept, baby and i went to Bugis junction to look for dress.
My cousin's wedding is coming ! I can't wait to eat those delicious dishes !!!!! :D
Well, while shopping, we met Baobei RACHEL :D hehehe ! Its been so long since all of
us last met. I really miss her. After my exams, I'll definitely meet her up with my baby.
wee wee :D They are " twins " afterall. haha :D
Im in love with this dress from Dorothy Perkins.
Anyway, i dropped my phone in the dressing room. LOL ! Wtf.. my heart was like.. CRACKED ! I told this to baby, he said..no big deal cuz he dropped his twice. lol !
Luckily this isnt IPhone... or else, it might be dead by now.
The last day of September ! 30/9..
Went to Kbox at Marina Square after school. :D
Sang and drank. Had the buffet dinner with the $23++ package. Irritating ass.........
I think i'd gained 5kg from that buffet. Lol.. i hope not. Its fucking hard to slim down.
My birthday ! o1/1o.
Hohoho.... Went to Tampines Mall with baby after school. Ate pastamania and baby
treated me Swensen's icecream.. I prefer Hagen Daaz. =x
Baby promised to treat me that on our anni :D lol !!
He fetched me home after buying Daphnia for my fry. :D
Sadly, baby didn't want to go up to my house because my aunties' were there to celebrate
my birthday with me.. :( anyway, i got lots of red packets :D hahaha.
I'll own you ! Dorothy perkin's dress :P
My brother bought me this cake !
Noodles ? haha those are actually made of cream. Its delicious :D
However, he's at work when we celebrated my day :( Noodles represent "Mee Sua"
means..... long life. Haha. Eggs and vege also have meanings behind it. But i dont know
what they meant. =x
My noob picture. Lol !
Great thanks to my dearest, who brought me so much happiness in my life.Also not forgetting my family and my great friends. They sang me bday song !
Including baby... haha i remembered that he's shy when he sang it xD
Now, for the interesting part ! Look !
My fighting fish and FRY !!!!! Those little dots.. are the babies. With their dad. :D
This, is their mom. Hahaha. Since my dad love this little blue fish, i breed them together.
:D
Some pretty half moon betta to share :D
I still love my betta even though there are prettier ones :D7.43PM
Exams are coming ! Doomsday is coming too :(
