Monday, March 29, 2010
I'm feeling kinda bored so I'll just blog about some stuffs..
Had so much to say but i guess there's no one out there is going to be my
listening ear. Friends dont have relationship now, i dont think they cares
about my problems anyway. Hahaha. Typing to a wall is fine for me.
I've thought through of what i had done to him. I was too unreasonable...
Scolding him even though we are friends. Having period, i really think too
much. Bad mood easily. Come to think of it, everything is just my fault. He
dont have to tolerate these. When he said that he's gonna give up on me, i
felt so pain. And of course sad.. I even saved the damn msn conversation, all
our quarreling. He told me that there's other options for him and im aint
worthy. I guess those words are from his anger. But, i think that its true.
He told me that a girl whom she liked him for last few years, came back
messaging him. 2 years and 7+ months. And she's back ? Just go and get her.
He had good feelings for her in the past but yet he didnt give her the chance.
I didnt appreciate and treasure this chance. What a dumb..
I even imagined the both of them getting together. How adorable. Even though
it hurts. I believe that loving someone doesn't have to be with him/her. :)
No matter what he do, i'll still support him deep down in my heart. What
matters the most, is his happiness. Im really not worthy. I felt that he left me,
instead of i leaving him. Weird isnt it ? I know i'll regret. But nothing's gonna
change. It will be better for us.. I hope :)
There's so many things i wanna say. Its so tight.. There's no one i can talk to,
except you, blogger..
When i bought snacks, i think of him. He bought me those crackers before. The
times were we eat and watch movies. Hahaha hell lot of memories. I cant get him
out of my mind. Maybe im going crazy, but thats fine. Hahaha! I lied to him so much.
I lied that i wont shed any tears for him, but i still did. I lied that i'll change his name
on my contacts, but i didnt. I lied that i hate him. I lied that he's not worthy for me
either. There's no turning back. I wish him the best :D
I do love him actually...Making him to hate me, is a reason.
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