Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Went to work with my new hair colour. Many said that i look bad with the hair
and it made me very mature. :( Its kinda hurtful but i spent $62 on it ! :( What made
me jealous is that all of them complimented twinny's hair except mine. I envied her
to be a cute little girl with a cute voice and character. Trying to be strong, i held my
emotions throughout the day. No one to talk about it except my baby. He's always
there for me whenever i feel down. I feel like hurting myself as i hate myself for
not being perfect.
I feel lucky to have such a wonderful boyfriend by my side. He never fail to comfort
me when im feeling low. Last few days i hated myself for making him angry
whenever i see him. For a week, we only managed to meet up about once or twice.
Its hurtful to see him angry for the precious 2 days. I wished i can do more.. :(
I blamed myself for not being good enough for him and also wasting his time, love,
energy and money on me. Im extremely silly at times which made him angry :(
I love him so much.. I doubt that no one can ever replace his caring thoughts to
me. Except his bad attitude :X but its improving !
Went home and i became RICH out of a sudden. Dad, mom and brother asked if i
have money. "No..... :(" then dad gave me $20, brother $20 and mom $10. One
after another. Dang ! Im rich ! $50 in 5 minutes.... xD
I wish that i won't think so muchhhhh ! :(
11.44PM ¶ 11:20 PM
and it made me very mature. :( Its kinda hurtful but i spent $62 on it ! :( What made
me jealous is that all of them complimented twinny's hair except mine. I envied her
to be a cute little girl with a cute voice and character. Trying to be strong, i held my
emotions throughout the day. No one to talk about it except my baby. He's always
there for me whenever i feel down. I feel like hurting myself as i hate myself for
not being perfect.
I feel lucky to have such a wonderful boyfriend by my side. He never fail to comfort
me when im feeling low. Last few days i hated myself for making him angry
whenever i see him. For a week, we only managed to meet up about once or twice.
Its hurtful to see him angry for the precious 2 days. I wished i can do more.. :(
I blamed myself for not being good enough for him and also wasting his time, love,
energy and money on me. Im extremely silly at times which made him angry :(
I love him so much.. I doubt that no one can ever replace his caring thoughts to
me. Except his bad attitude :X but its improving !
Went home and i became RICH out of a sudden. Dad, mom and brother asked if i
have money. "No..... :(" then dad gave me $20, brother $20 and mom $10. One
after another. Dang ! Im rich ! $50 in 5 minutes.... xD
I wish that i won't think so muchhhhh ! :(
11.44PM ¶ 11:20 PM
